LATE AGAIN!! RATS!!

Well hello my fellow bloggers!! Aren't you all so proud of yourselves for learning or already knowing how to do this?? Ang M. I noticed that you must have figured out how to find your pass word & that you even posted a picture! You ROCK! I want to give my shout outs 1st!! I love reading all of the comments from everyone! It makes my WEEK! I'll go down the line.. Lace, thanks for blogging & for your prayers! I love ya! Karie, thanks for the mothers day & birthday "happies" I think you, my dear, are hilarious! I hope you had a GR8 Mums day as well.. Amber, I'm so sorry that Scott's not going to be there for Krystal!! Wut a numb nut!! Tell her we're proud of her! & thanks for the "happy bday" I love you too, keep on stalking on Sundays! Kira, hey girl!! To answer your question, it depends on the week!! It seems like its a LONG 3 months, however, looking back, it really has gone by quickly. And it's almost OVER! Midgee, well,well,well.. Yes I do agree that our River Dancing could take us to places we've never seen before, such as the insane asylum!! If we have DRT as our groupie, we're in serious trouble!! He'd tell us to grow up & act our age!! I WON'T grow up, I WON'T, I WON'T!! (sorry DrT if you're reading this.. Do I still have a job??) Thanks for the bday stuff! You're my hero xo! Celest, chicky! I hope you got my text on your Bday!! Hope it was wonderful! We really need to catch up!! Keep me informed! love ya! Jan G. You CRACK ME UP!! It was good seeing you today! You too are such a strong lady! I love your guts!! Don't shave your head just yet... I only have a month to go, so far we've both still got some hair!! Love you "honey love"..George!! hey neighbor, I think Emily is so cute!! We are quite the Frisbee champions!! We'll have to invite you to the Frisbee World Playoffs, when we get there. She doesn't seem to be "as" apprehensive about Abby the Dog.. Even Tommy played with us for a minute, while Abby laid close by.. That license plate was cool, poor thing doesn't know how to spell "UTONA" though...You & Bishop & the kids are so AWESOME!! We love you guys!! ANDREA!!! My friend!! Thanks for thinking of me. I think life keeps handing me these "trials" so that someday, I can be as patient & caring as you are.. You taught me so much. Give Claire a love from "auntie Tona" xo And back to ANG M. Facials sound superb!! & lunch is a grand idea, since we'd have no makeup on & we'd scare everyone!! Just let me know what time!!
WHEW!! That was incredible!! I had so many comments to read, it really does lift me up! So, as you know my Bday was last Thursday & yes I'm old!! But it's ok, I'm forgetting so much lately, that I don't even remember how old I really am. I've said 29 and many, many months for so long, that I actually had to sit down and figure it out!! I'm 30 now!! I'm such a LIAR!!! My sister in laws & I went and had a pedicure (my first one ever!!) and out to dinner. We had so much fun, we decided to do something once a month. We all got our calenders out & saved a day until the end of the year!! I'm so happy!! Ok, Thursday's are my "oh woe is me day"!! & it was most definitely a WOE day! I got a lot of happy birthday singers on the messages, and several balloons and treats!! You're all so sweet! Taylor & Thomas called from Idaho & sang a beautiful bday song, it was so cute. I love those little farts!! (the kids, not when you have little farts...) Andy worked late, then he & Meggen went looking for cars. Yup we got her her own car! I just had a hard time sharing my cute VW Bug with her...So anyways, I was alone for almost the entire day. Susan stopped by, I was in the "chamber" Midgee came over. Tara & David Wetzel came by & brought me a book, "If life were easy, it wouldn't be hard" hmm, now there's something to think about!! David read me several pages, about flying ships and marsh mellows, maybe the poison really messed me up.. but I think that's what he read. Oh yeah and being buried in your angel skin, no robes... We're so twisted!! (sorry Tara, I had to write it..) Friday, several more visits to the idol!! And lots of sleeping. I was so looking forward to Saturday. Tara made us some delicious soup & JELLO!! We are so hooked on that stuff!! Thanks guys!! In the later afternoon on Saturday, Andy planted a garden for his dad for an early fathers day ( I watched, rather, I supervised!!) later Susan & Rafe brought us salads, YUMMY!! Sunday, was so GOOD!! It was incredible out side.. We took a long drive to West Mountain & Genola, it was wonderful, so good to get out of the house! We drove around with the sunroof open, I got a little sunburn... First time my lily white skin has seen that much sun this year.. I'm so sorry I didn't blog last night. I was feeling so good, that I forgot I was going through this whole thing.. Well not completely forgot, but good enough that I didn't post until just now! My Aunt Juanita passed away Sunday before last, on Mothers day of all days. She lost her battle with cancer. I want my cousins to know how sorry I am for their loss! I loved her too. I have so many fun memories of her when I was soooo much younger. I'm sorry I couldn't be there for all of you, that I couldn't go to her funeral last week. I hope you understand why. Please know that you're in my prayers..xoxo
I just wanted to tell everyone, sorry if I've forgotten to thank you. And also sorry that I handle this situation the way that I do.. Some of you know what I'm talking about...I've often said I'm not in control of this "problem" I'm going through, so I am in control of my doctor appointments (and so on) I just want you to know that I don't do that to be selfish. I know we all handle this differently. I also know that at the end of the day, you can go on with your life, not looking around the corner to see when it is you're going to be sick, sick, sick!! That you can go out to lunch & eat whatever you want, and that you'll have energy to walk around and play etc. I also know that at the end of the day, I still have cancer (for a bit longer) and that I know I'm going to have 2 or so days of HELL & the other 2 days of trying to get up and be apart of a family. I know that I can't eat whatever I want (however, STRAWBERRY anything is basically all that I want) and that I don't have the energy to clean the house & have my OCD with the counters... or walk around and play like I once did (and will do again) So just know that I love you all, and that I'm not trying to be selfish by keeping some CONTROL over all of this that I'm going through.. It will be over soon, I promise! I'll be back to normal, telling everyone what to do & where to go... Oh wait, I do that now.. But at least I'll have the energy to do it RIGHT!! I love you guys, thanks for caring about me! Thanks for being a part of my life! WE WILL OVERCOME!!! Poison Girl!!! xoxxoxoxo

3 MONTHS DOWN

WOW! HAPPY MOTHERS DAY! I had a really OK week. I guess compared to last week, this week was a breeze! My blood count has finally begun to do what it's supposed to do. The "new" chemo, the aggressive one, well for now I no longer have to take it!!! This week we had Thomas & Taylor, from Wednesday until today. It was nice to have the company on those first 2 days. Meggen came home from school on Friday & I must have fallen asleep in the sitting room. I remember stopping there just to take a break, next thing I know Megg's home from school. My days seem to go like that. Andy & Thomas went paint balling on Saturday morning & Megg had to work. Taylor & I hung out. She kept rubbing my back, when I started to feel sick. I love my family so much, thanks for the support! Nikki, thanks for the sweet, adorable card!! I'll try to read that book.. I have another one of Megg's to read, I just can't stay awake! Sorry to you & Susan, I forgot to call to go walking on Wednesday night.. Susan thanks for the STRAWBERRIES!! Thanks for the blogs Karie, Babe, Angela & Midgee. Ang, I tried the super power thing to get to Pismo, dang it wouldn't work, must be on the blink. Karie I love reading your blogs you're awesome!! Andy, babe, thanks for posting, don't make fun, you really would be lost without me!!! I only tell you what to do for your own good.... Midgee, aren't you so excited that Andy remembered your mom's b-day this week! He better remember mines on the same day!! I love you all! I'll be a year older next time I blog, hope my memory doesn't start slipping. I love you all!! I'll be a year older the next time I blog, hope my memory doesn't start slipping. (just teasing, we all know it's already going!!) love Poison Girl...xoxo

11 weeks!! Down??

Ok, so as you may have noticed, it's not Sunday evening, my normal blogging day... It is however Wednesday morning @ hmmm 12:35 AM!!! UGGGG. Insomnia, AGAIN. First off thanks to all of you for your concern for me. It was amazing how many of you asked if I was "ok" because you checked for my blog & it wasn't there. Thank you, thank you. Not only do I know you care, but that you also "enjoy" my updates. Last week, whew, what a week. Thursday, same old same old. And by same old, I mean, this is getting SO OLD! My worst day, just the norm, slept, offered up my innards to the almighty porcelain idol, slept some more and so on. Friday a little more of Thursdays action. Saturday, just run down. Did manage to clean the kitchen, do the laundry, vacuum & even made the bed.. Dut da da da (imagine the triumphant sound when the super hero arrives!! Ah ha see you know what I'm talking about) Then came SUNDAY, usually a pretty ok day, right? WRONG! It all started around 1:00 AM. Woke up, felt achy, feverish, just OFF! Made it to the bathroom with NO time to spare. My lease, with my food from Saturday, was up!! Tried to go back to sleep, nope, not happening. Went back to idol spot, gave up some more. And morE, and moRE, and mORE, and MORE!! You get the picture. I cried, I prayed, I pleaded! It felt like Thursday was back! You know that saying "kicking BUTT & taking names" well, yes it definitely took every letter of my entire name!! I told Andy, that I was done, that I'm not doing this anymore. That there's no way I can survive this again, over & over! He said "yes there is & YES you will" (usually I hate it when he's right & I'm wrong, however, this time - thanks babe xox) 3 AM came, no change. 4:30, same. Up until 8 AM, I had Andy call DrC for Phenegren (anti nausea, in suppository form - no chance of that coming back UP, just OUT...ewwww erase that mental picture) While Andy talked to DrC, I stayed in the bathroom, wailing (not a whale! Who's calling me fat???) & kicking my feet, kind of looked as if I was throwing a fit (anyone who knows me would know that I do NOT throw fits, just attention getters...)Pharmacy didn't open until 10AM. So being the "no quitter" that I am, I proceeded with my routine. I laid on my bathroom floor with my legs over the tub (I'm too tall for my short bathroom - note to self, next house, lay down in bathroom to see if it's long enough..) I couldn't keep still, very fidgety. My hips hurt from laying on the hard floor. My ribs felt bruised (still do) from the heaving. My throat was on fire! Couldn't even drink my apple juice, it burned. Had to put off taking my regular scheduled Chemo until 11Am. That's when the Phenegren kicked in. I slept & slept. When I woke up I was drenched in sweat. Fever must have broke. Didn't vomit again, but I was exhausted! Around 5:30 PM Meggen started to feel sick. She visited the idol as well. We both stayed home on Monday. Late afternoon I was back to normal - as normal as I can be. Megg slept the entire day. We're guessing that on top of my Chemo sickness, that I also had the FLU! Honestly if I have another one of those days, I'm going to take it up with someone higher!!! I don't know how some people can survive stronger doses of this garbage! Anyone you know of who's gone through this or is going through this, let them know how brave & strong they are. Ok, well it's now 1:21 AM. still not tired but I need to be, have to get up for work in 4 hours.. This blog is LONG, sorry. Thanks again for all of your prayers, and thanks for leaving your comments, they really do pick me up when I'm at my low time!! I love you all!
Kira Joy, I had a STRAWBERRY slushy today from Sonic.... YUMMO!! Tona A.K.A Poison Girl (dut da da da, theme song, remember??) : ) Not sure why my post date reads Tuesday @ 11:31 PM... I'll have to have Andy fix that..